What will be, will be.

For the longest time, I've been wanting to get a tattoo. Deciding that I wanted to get one done is an entirely different story from picking out what I wanted to be etched on my skin until I'm forty, fifty, sixty years old- hell, it will be there forever.  Needless to say, it wasn't going to be butterflies, flowers, stars, hearts, or somebody's name.

Then came the final movie of Harry Potter. I may not be the greatest fan in the world but my friends know I am a HUGE fan. My HP book set is more tattered than the rest of the books I own for I've read through them so many times- to the point they became my favorite toilet reading material. Now, you ask, how is Harry Potter related to my tattoo? As a tribute to the series I spent practically a decade of my life with, I said to myself that my first tattoo will be a phrase or quote lifted from it.

I spent months going through different websites, scouring for the perfect one, until I decided with "For us it's real." I don't know what it was exactly that delayed me from actually getting it done. Fast forward to November, about a month into the breakup of a three-year relationship that I initiated, I wanted to get a tattoo for real. I began prowling the magical internet world again and saw "Que sera sera". What will be, will be. OH. MY. GOD. That has to be it.

Feelings don't go away overnight. In retrospect, no matter how stupid my reason for wanting the breakup in the first place, it was indeed necessary no matter how much pain has been, or still is, being inflicted for both parties. They say when a relationship ends, it doesn't necessarily mean it has been a failure. It can still be a success if you have happy memories to cherish, and when you get out of it not bitter towards each other. Right now, there are so many things that I could hope for. I hope and hope, yet I don't want to crush myself either. So yeah, I'll continue with my life with fingers crossed while muttering Que Sera Sera.