Life Goes On

You know that feeling when you clean up your room and rediscover something that was once so dear to you? That's what happens every time I remember that I do have a blog and I try to check what drafts or published posts I have.

Today I saw that I made a list earlier this year- it was just a short list of things that I wanted to accomplish within the year. The best part about forgetting that list was reading through it again and realizing that I actually managed to cross practically all of the items off. 

It feels great to have some sort of proof that things have changed for the better, that despite not being where I would have wanted myself to be at this point in time, my life was still  not stagnant. It is great to be reminded in which things you have managed to attain semblance of any progress and to see things that you need to work on better.

Some things may have shifted, priorities have changed, things may have been added to my list- at the end of the day though life goes on and so, ONWARD WE PUSH!!!!! 

Facebook can push you into a quarter life crisis

Just when you think things are going great, you go on Facebook and start scrolling down. That's when you realize that every other person you see on your feed (who you went to school with) is either just married, or expecting their first child.

Makes you rethink life plans and reassess where you really stand.  How is everyone settling down when you just barely started working your way up?  It makes you yearn for that contentment when one settles down and starts building a home of their own.  You question when will that time come for you? And then you hope that you will actually be prepared for it when the time comes.

For the meantime,  fine, you preoccupy yourself with trying to find a tattoo artist and drink a porn star shot every now and then.

SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTSSSS!!!

Just because I feel restless

Just because I never make NY resolutions, I've come up with things to do for 2013 instead. Despite having no followers, throwing this list out here on the internet will nudge me to get on with it

1. Travel again! Even just for a weekend roadtrip- went to Panama this July

2. Finally get my hair dyed some shade of red- just did during Thanksgiving weekend wheee

3. Get inked again, that big piece I want on my back/rib area- started as of August and still in progress

4. Let go of negative things that I've held on to for so long- I'm free as a butterfly!!

5. Take more photos, tinker with my DSLR more (it's already gathering dust)- need to try harder!

6. Clean the house, like, seriously. -this is difficult lol

7. IMMA BE AWESOMESAUCE NUNINUNINUNINUUUU -so far things are great!!

Edited October 16, 2013

What will be, will be.

For the longest time, I've been wanting to get a tattoo. Deciding that I wanted to get one done is an entirely different story from picking out what I wanted to be etched on my skin until I'm forty, fifty, sixty years old- hell, it will be there forever.  Needless to say, it wasn't going to be butterflies, flowers, stars, hearts, or somebody's name.

Then came the final movie of Harry Potter. I may not be the greatest fan in the world but my friends know I am a HUGE fan. My HP book set is more tattered than the rest of the books I own for I've read through them so many times- to the point they became my favorite toilet reading material. Now, you ask, how is Harry Potter related to my tattoo? As a tribute to the series I spent practically a decade of my life with, I said to myself that my first tattoo will be a phrase or quote lifted from it.

I spent months going through different websites, scouring for the perfect one, until I decided with "For us it's real." I don't know what it was exactly that delayed me from actually getting it done. Fast forward to November, about a month into the breakup of a three-year relationship that I initiated, I wanted to get a tattoo for real. I began prowling the magical internet world again and saw "Que sera sera". What will be, will be. OH. MY. GOD. That has to be it.

Feelings don't go away overnight. In retrospect, no matter how stupid my reason for wanting the breakup in the first place, it was indeed necessary no matter how much pain has been, or still is, being inflicted for both parties. They say when a relationship ends, it doesn't necessarily mean it has been a failure. It can still be a success if you have happy memories to cherish, and when you get out of it not bitter towards each other. Right now, there are so many things that I could hope for. I hope and hope, yet I don't want to crush myself either. So yeah, I'll continue with my life with fingers crossed while muttering Que Sera Sera.

Jalapeño pepper

So I went to the grocery after my shift and bought a pint of haagen daz ice cream on sale (and my coworker's specifically requested bag of kettle cooked chips). I went back to the store I work at

Me: hey babe, they didn't have the flavour of chips that you wanted!
R: what? No :(
Me: yeah! They have every other flavour except the one you wanted!
R:aww :( you shouldv'e called me so i could pick something else!
Me: but i left my phone here. I took a picture of the fake kettle cooked chips though. The imitation ones. I told you imitations exist!! (we had a debate prior to my grocery trip whether she she wanted THE kettle brand or some random kettle cooked chips)

And so i show her the picture.

R: marieeelllle!! That's the brand i wanted! That's it! Go back to the grocery and buy me my chips!!!
Me: but you told me you wanted the original, not the fake!!
R: well i didn't know that those aren't original!i want the big pack please.

And because i love her so much and didn't really wanna go home yet, i walked back to the grocery to buy THE magical (and fake) kettle chips while dodging the creepy guy who was restocking the potato chips section.

Oh hai thar!

Hi! I'm Marielle, 21 years of age, born and raised in the Philippines but now residing in Canada. I have lots of interests- some of which I have half- heartedly pursued, or boldly plunged myself into but have not followed through. My mom (and my horoscope, LOL) once said that I'm good at starting things or ideas but not  at finishing them.

At work, I'm actually an organized individual with serious follow through, but that might be the only exception. See at some point in my life I wanted to be a cheerleader but I shied away from the opportunity. I also wanted to be in theater but lacked perseverance to be good enough. Aaand I also once was interested in photography, wanted to buy a fancy schmancy camera, and realized months later that I don't even want to take photos at gatherings anymore. I once played the piano (quite terribly) and someday I hope to learn how to play the guitar. At this point, only time will tell which class I'd take first.

So hopefully, this blog will be my companion throughout all the things I would be trying, as well as a repository for all other odds and ends. I really look forward to faithfully keeping it updated and sharing random things with everyone who would be dropping by my site.

P.S. They say you can never dream too big, so I might as well write it here. Maybe one day I'll be famous for some talent I'd discover in the future, or maybe I will ~empower~ others to be more adventurous. Yeah? LOL, we'll see.